Hello there 🙂
I am a level 2 reiki practitioner who has been suffering from an emotional breakdown and PTSD. I want to share my journey into Reiki with you just incase it can possibly help others.
Where to start though??
My issues started to re surface in about October ’16. General symptoms of depression, un worthy, not good enough, spontaneous wailing, unable to get out of bed…. along with the panic attacks, Not breathing, sweating, closed up throat all the ‘normal’ symptoms associated with these problems.
One day at work I was chatting with a lady called Caroline (whose name I can’t say without singing the song haha) Caroline is an animal reiki practitioner she helps our rescue dogs who are anxious or stressed in the kennels, she also does a lot of work with oils too which is super interesting. Anyway, she said to me ‘Well what on earth is going on with you??’ I was shocked as I hadn’t shared any of my problems with anybody. confused Ianswered with the classic reply ‘I’m fine’ to which she took my hand and said ‘Let me do some reiki on you’ So at break time I sat in the kitchen and she laid her hands on me whilst I meditated…. I felt nothing in all honesty. How disappointed was I??? She sat down with me and explained that the body has 7 chakras and that one chakra out of line can make a huge difference to how we feel. She explained about the electro magnetic field in and around the body and how reiki works within this energy to ‘sort you out’ I was further intrigued when she continued to tell me that all of my chakras were super blocked up and that’s why I, and herself couldn’t pick up anything. I left a bit disappointed, especially after I see every single day what a difference she makes to the dogs when she been.
Fast forward a couple of months. I had got to the point where I was at the lowest I have ever been in my life. Feeling totally helpless as I had tried everything I could think of, Meditation, hypnotherapy, CBT, therapy… name it I had tried it… I went away with my ‘dog’ friends (friends who specifically are involved for the dogs, them friends you can just talk about dogs too without them rolling their eyes haha) We went to Cricceth in Wales. Stayed in the most phenomenal house, walked our legs off, had lovely drinks and food, so many laughs. then on the night before our last day, I hit the wall, I mean really hit the wall. I was sat at the table with the 10 others. I wanted to cry. I mean seriously cry, bawling like a waterfall balling. So I went outside for some air. All of the pent-up emotion and pain leaked out of me. So I went to bed. Then I climbed out of the bedroom window onto the scaffolding next door. I hung there by one hand (I’m actually petrified of heights too) I felt like no one would miss me, no one loved me, my husband and son would be fine without having to put up with me fighting this battle. I genuinely believed that everything should end right there and then. So I hung there balling. What saved me? The neighbours returning home. The overwhelming thought of having to speak to a stranger scared me more than taking my life at that point. I climbed back in the window and lay on the bed and cried more. I got up in the morning and rang my bestie, she was mortified with me, super supportive, yet heartbroken and hilarious (DIE??? you’d never eat another roast potato. Or feel the grass between your toes!!) I couldn’t face that day. While everyone was out I had a really long bath and I drove myself home. On that drive home the Reiki popped back into my mind and I decided that when I got home I was going to look into finding a practitioner I connected with that I didn’t know.
Coincidentally, after I’d arrived home, cried to the husband and got myself together, I went onto Facebook the 1st post there was from a local holistic therapists offering Reiki level 1 attunement. I thought ok. Lets book a session and if I like it, I book the course whilst I’m there. I called up and spoke to the lady on the phone, who was crazy funny, she instantly made me feel at ease she said she didn’t want to put any pressure on me but to nip over whenever I was ready. The next day I drove over there. Parked my car around a back street nowhere near the shop, but buy a corner shop. I sat in the car building up the courage to get out and go. Whilst sat there what I can only describe as the most wonderful person walked over, I swear she was glowing. She beamed at me and she said ‘my names Deb I’m a psychic’ She gathered me up in a huge hug and said ‘you’re all over the place lets sort you out’ I am not a touchy person at all, however her touch was the best feeling in the world.
We went inside, her shop has the most amazing atmosphere, you instantly fetl safe and protected in there. I still like to nip in now when I’m by her shop, just to chill out for 5.
We went for a 30 minute treatment. I lay there feeling sceptical for the whole treatment. This is where I turned the corner with the Reiki. After the session. She sat me down and asked how I found it. I replied ‘yeah great’ and she just frowned at me… Then she started talking….
‘I think you’re amazing. You were once spiritual but now you aren’t, you aren’t sure what you believe anymore. There’s pressure at home but not with a partner. You’re world was rocked a long time ago and you’re not healed, nowhere near. The situations have never been dealt with. Your family love you and support you, they are worried about you. The angels are trying to get you to listen to them and they want to guide you. You have a definite connection with the divine. A total gift for healing. However instead of thinking this is bullshit, I know you do, embrace it and love it for what it is’
My mouth dropped open. She couldn’t have been more accurate. I booked another session and the course.
The next session was bizarre. I was asleep but awake during the treatment, that’s the only way I can describe it. I felt pulsing through her touch, heat that was spreading all over my body. it was heavenly.I saw pulsing different colours as she held her hands on me, different colours for each chakra too. I left feeling so relaxed, more relaxed than I had in years. My tension headache that i constantly have had vanished and my muscles didn’t feel as pent-up and tight as they usually do. I had the best nights sleep ever that night. When i woke up the next day i thought
‘That helped me, it eased my crazy thoughts. It made me feel relaxed, I slept well. I want to do this for other people, I want to make people feel this relaxed and lovely!’
That was the turning point for me. I feel like Reiki absolutley helps with depression and anxiety. The above quote shows the Reiki principals, as soon as I read them I knew this was for me. Especially more so when I started treating people!
Reiki is awesome.
Thats all for now
like and sha