Reiki Journey

Hello There 🙂

Well today is one of those shitty days! Got up and have no go in me at all. Awful feeling. So I’ve managed to do 2 loads of washing and hung it out, walked the dogs, sorted the puppies and changed the bed. Thrilling hey!!

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Time consuming cutiepies 🙂

Amazing aren’t they. Had them since the night they were born as Mummy had been over bred and couldn’t look after them. So sad.

The Reiki journey continues!

The night I got home from my last session, after meeting the glowing lady, my mind was already in overdrive. I was trying to figure out where I could make a Reiki treatment room, how it would look, and then the bit that confused me… could I make money?? Did I even want to make money?? I was aware that Reiki wouldn’t work if the intention to heal isn’t from your soul, as such. If you wanted to go and do the course and then just lay your hands on people, without the correct intention the Reiki wouldn’t work. Quite rightly so!! I knew my intention was to help people and I knew I really didn’t mind about making money. My main concern was that it would be taking me away from job with the dogs. So I decided that the best plan was to book in sessions at lunch and evenings. I then decided that instead of being paid myself for a session I would do a treatment for a donation to the rescue animals. Bingo!

Now isn’t the above a perfect example of anxiety???? I had already got all of that planned  out and I hadn’t even attended the 1st part of the course!! It is an uncontrollable emotion that I was hoping the Reiki principals would help me with. That and deep breathing. When the anxiety kicks in and the throat and chest start to close I always try and slow my breathing and heart rate down. Its a bit embarrassing in public places, I don’t know about you, busy places set me right off and busy places where I don’t know anybody send me into over drive. I can shut off and breathe innnnnnnn and breathe ouuuuuuuut…. sometimes that helps, sometimes I have to run away. I am humiliated when I run. I can look forward to an event for so so long and then on the day I either can’t go, or, I get there and have to leg it after an hour. Things I definitely need to work on I feel.

Digressing again sorry about that!

On the day of the Reiki course I had all of the above symptoms and more. I felt better I had met my teacher, I felt better that my cousin and her friend were coming with me too. I think that’s a big deal. Having someone you know with you. I don’t think you necessarily  even need to tell them that you aren’t shitting rainbows most days, just having someone with you can make you feel better and make you feel stronger. Stronger is good. Surround yourself with people who make you feel that way and discard the ones that don’t!

So we rock up, late, one of my worst worries being late so the anxiety had built and built on the drive over. Walked into the room. Instantly felt relaxed, even though there was strangers in the room. This had me intrigued, how could a room feel like this? (I found out later on that Deb works exceptionally hard to keep the shop protected and it works a treat!)

My mind was all over the place, but I felt comfortable in my skin, its rare for me to feel like that. I couldn’t work the vibe out while I sat there, I figured out later it was the energy in the room making me feel relaxed. I’d never thought about atmosphere in an energetic way before, but it makes perfect sense! Everybody vibrates, if you are in a room where everyone is feeling excited for whats to come, then all of those people’s vibrations are on a similar frequency to you, this of course will feel amazing!

The course started and for the 6 hours we were in there I was hooked. It 100% helps when you can connect with your teacher, every time mine speaks I’m open-minded and full on listening, whether its face to face or by a Facebook message, she has my absolute attention, I think thats probably respect actually now I think about it.

The meditations were beautiful. The people in the room were also amazing. when we were taken off individually for our attunenments I didn’t feel nervous, I was excited!!

When the attunement started the loveliest glow came over me, I felt like the clouds had opened and the sun was beaming down onto the bottom of neck, like the warmest water was pouring over my head in the most beautiful way and the most intense feeling of peace.

After the attunements we then got to practise on others in the room. This was massive for me, as I said I am not a touchy feely person, this was the part of the day I was most worried about! All I can say is that it was phenomenal. We could pick up on where people had pain, whether someone was emotionally hurt, whether their spirituality was as a full on believer or not. Our hands were hot, each one of us had a hand more powerful than the other. Some parts of people’s body were hot and some cold, this was picked up by hovering our hands over the body and feeling the energy. It was very interesting as some people felt cold as positive and hot as negative, and some people vice versa.

We were advised that we would now start the seven-day cleanse. I was not sure what to expect at all!! The cleanse is kind of like your body is taking in all the energy you need to do the treatments, this energy is passed through your chakras a day at a time. It’s interesting to know that everyone in the group had a really intense seven days. Sore throats, Tired, emotional… we all really felt it and all felt pretty damn rough!!

On returning home I had the most intense headache ever. One of those ones where you know that it won’t go until you’ve been to sleep. So I had another fabulous nights sleep, again thanks to the Reiki.

The next morning when I woke up I decided to get cracking with the Reiki room. I shifted millions of boxes of books out of the gym (We have a charity shop, the donations stay at ours) I burnt rubbish, sorted decent stuff for the shop, had a right good clear out I did. I scrubbed until my fingers bled, really they bled haha! I worked solidly all day long on it for 2 days. Then the fun bit started where I could start buying bits for it! I started painting and hanging things and it soon started to come together.

After our part one attunement we could only practise on family and friends so my room wasn’t to be used too much, however I felt proud of myself for the 1st time in sooooo long it was crazy. I was concerned that once I had finished the room I would go straight back down, but I didn’t, yes I had horrific days, yet I really tried to focus on the positive things, the room and the fact I had level 2 to look forward to!

Heres my room….

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Until next time..

Love and Light

J

 

Does Reiki Help Depression?

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Hello there 🙂
I am a level 2 reiki practitioner who has been suffering from an emotional breakdown and PTSD. I want to share my journey into Reiki with you just incase it can possibly help others.

Where to start though??

My issues started to re surface in about October ’16. General symptoms of depression, un worthy, not good enough, spontaneous wailing, unable to get out of bed…. along with the panic attacks, Not breathing, sweating, closed up throat all the ‘normal’ symptoms associated with these problems.

One day at work I was chatting with a lady called Caroline (whose name I can’t say without singing the song haha) Caroline is an animal reiki practitioner she helps our rescue dogs who are anxious or stressed in the kennels, she also does a lot of work with oils too which is super interesting. Anyway, she said to me ‘Well what on earth is going on with you??’ I was shocked as I hadn’t shared any of my problems with anybody. confused Ianswered with the classic reply ‘I’m fine’ to which she took my hand and said ‘Let me do some reiki on you’ So at break time I sat in the kitchen and she laid her hands on me whilst I meditated…. I felt nothing in all honesty. How disappointed was I??? She sat down with me and explained that the body has 7 chakras and that one chakra out of line can make a huge difference to how we feel. She explained about the electro magnetic field in and around the body and how reiki works within this energy to ‘sort you out’  I was further intrigued when she continued to tell me that all of my chakras were super blocked up and that’s why I, and herself couldn’t pick up anything. I left a bit disappointed, especially after I see every single day what a difference she makes to the dogs when she been.

Fast forward a couple of months. I had got to the point where I was at the lowest I have ever been in my life. Feeling totally helpless as I had tried everything I could think of, Meditation, hypnotherapy, CBT, therapy… name it I had tried it… I went away with my ‘dog’ friends (friends who specifically are involved for the dogs, them friends you can just talk about dogs too without them rolling their eyes haha) We went to Cricceth in Wales. Stayed in the most phenomenal house, walked our legs off, had lovely drinks and food, so many laughs. then on the night before our last day, I hit the wall, I mean really hit the wall. I was sat at the table with the 10 others. I wanted to cry. I mean seriously cry, bawling like a waterfall balling. So I went outside for some air. All of the pent-up emotion and pain leaked out of me. So I went to bed. Then I climbed out of the bedroom window onto the scaffolding next door. I hung there by one hand (I’m actually petrified of heights too) I felt like no one would miss me, no one loved me, my husband and son would be fine without having to put up with me fighting this battle. I genuinely believed that everything should end right there and then. So I hung there balling. What saved me? The neighbours returning home. The overwhelming thought of having to speak to a stranger scared me more than taking my life at that point. I climbed back in the window and lay on the bed and cried more. I got up in the morning and rang my bestie, she was mortified with me, super supportive, yet heartbroken and hilarious (DIE??? you’d never eat another roast potato. Or feel the grass between your toes!!) I couldn’t face that day. While everyone was out I had a really long bath and I drove myself home. On that drive home the Reiki popped back into my mind and I decided that when I got home I was going to look into finding a practitioner I connected with that I didn’t know.

Coincidentally, after I’d arrived home, cried to the husband and got myself together, I went onto Facebook the 1st post there was from a local holistic therapists offering Reiki level 1 attunement. I thought ok. Lets book a session and if I like it, I book the course whilst I’m there. I called up and spoke to the lady on the phone, who was crazy funny, she instantly made me feel at ease she said she didn’t want to put any pressure on me but to nip over whenever I was ready. The next day I drove over there. Parked my car around a back street nowhere near the shop, but buy a corner shop. I sat in the car building up the courage to get out and go. Whilst sat there what I can only describe as the most wonderful person walked over, I swear she was glowing. She beamed at me and  she said ‘my names Deb I’m a psychic’ She gathered me up in a huge hug and said ‘you’re all over the place lets sort you out’ I am not a touchy person at all, however her touch was the best feeling in the world.

We went inside, her shop has the most amazing atmosphere, you instantly fetl safe and protected in there. I still like to nip in now when I’m by her shop, just to chill out for 5.

We went for a 30 minute treatment. I lay there feeling sceptical for the whole treatment. This is where I turned the corner with the Reiki. After the session. She sat me down and asked how I found it. I replied ‘yeah great’ and she just frowned at me… Then she started talking….

‘I think you’re amazing. You were once spiritual but now you aren’t, you aren’t sure what you believe anymore. There’s pressure at home but not with a partner. You’re world was rocked a long time ago and you’re not healed, nowhere near. The situations have never been dealt with. Your family love you and support you, they are worried about you. The angels are trying to get you to listen to them and they want to guide you. You have a definite connection with the divine. A total gift for healing. However instead of thinking this is bullshit, I know you do, embrace it and love it for what it is’

My mouth dropped open. She couldn’t have been more accurate. I booked another session and the course.

The next session was bizarre. I was asleep but awake during the treatment, that’s the only way I can describe it. I felt pulsing through her touch, heat that was spreading all over my body. it was heavenly.I saw pulsing different colours as she held her hands on me, different colours for each chakra too. I left feeling so relaxed, more relaxed than I had in years.  My tension headache that i constantly have had vanished and my muscles didn’t feel as pent-up and tight as they usually do. I had the best nights sleep ever that night. When i woke up the next day i thought

‘That helped me, it eased my crazy thoughts. It made me feel relaxed, I slept well. I want to do this for other people, I want to make people feel this relaxed and lovely!’

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That was the turning point for me. I feel like Reiki absolutley helps with depression and anxiety. The above quote shows the Reiki principals, as soon as I read them I knew this was for me. Especially more so when I started treating people!

Reiki is awesome.

Thats all for now

J

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